March 6, 2016

NEW YORK STATE OF MIND

This sort of explains why I love having an idea of what it is I’m going to do because I sort have a feeling of ‘security’ in my life - if that makes any sense whatsoever.
I'd also like to thank Ms. [Barbra] Streisand for a new blog post title that I can highly relate to. 


Sometimes I feel like the biggest paradox ever, the reason why I say this is because I can be sort of a mess sometimes, my opinions constantly contradict each other which can end up being quite complicated. This sort of explains why I love having an idea of what it is I’m going to do because I sort have a feeling of ‘security’ in my life - if that makes any sense whatsoever.

I begun thinking of what a confusing person I can when I was talking to one of my friends in my drama class, in a way she said she thought I was sort of weird for being so young and having all these thoughts about my future - I have a clear view of where I am expecting myself to be in 5 years - shit, even before I’m 18, I have an idea for everything. In a way, or at least in my mind it’s all planned out - I visit New York during the spring break of my senior year, to basically go on search for apartments so I’d be ready to move in the Fall. 

Of course those plans are quite vague, I keep my more “detailed” thoughts to myself because in a way they’re sort of embarrassing, I have these huge plans for myself - of doing these huge things in New York. Sometimes they’re so big that I can be quite embarrassed to say it myself. I guess I can say I have “big screen dreams”. I said it. I don’t think that I just want to limit myself to fashion because although I am in love with  fashion and I love every corner of the industry it can be suffocating - I’ve always explained my love for the performing arts and I don’t think that it should come to a shock that i would want to become an actor. All my dreams are equally as important to me - I'll achieve each and every single one of them.

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