September 6, 2016

TRANSITIONS

In typical Fernando fashion, I begun over-thinking and asked myself if I was prepared for the real world. Do I have what it takes to survive?

There’s a lot of excitement in growing up, I think it’s something that kids and teenagers crave so desperately because of the total independence. I’ve experienced my fair share of those emotions so I can speak from my own understanding, but actually growing up can be the scariest thing in your life, at least in terms of driving. My dad has been totally nagging on me for months to learns how to drive and I’ve thrown it to the side; I’ve just always felt as if I was too young to even step foot on the right side of car. I eventually did, I told my dad I wanted to drive and so a couple months ago I begun. 

At first, my dad told me to drive around a parking lot and so I did. It was empty and it was an all-open area. I drove smoothly until we ran out of time and had to go home. I didn’t touch the car for months until I recently felt somewhat confident and brave and told my dad to teach me again. I assumed it would be the same story as the first time but oh was I wrong. I drove around the same empty parking lot until my dad asked what I was doing. “Driving,” I said. 

After I said that, my “smart-ass” tone was nowhere to be found; my dad was, in other words, telling me to drive with everyone else. I didn’t know what to do. It gave me tons of anxiety to think that I’d actually have to drive with everyone else. My heart and brain were frozen with fear and thoughts and I didn’t know what to do. I eventually changed my mind and decided that we’d resume when I was ready. By the look on my dad’s face, I assume that he was a bit disappointed; he just really wants to see me driving already. I once read that it’s the best feeling in the world for a parent. 

In typical Fernando fashion, I begun over-thinking and asked myself if I was prepared for the real world. Do I have what it takes to survive? I feel as if I’ve always remained in my comfort zone and I despise it. You need to take many risks to survive in the world of entertainment and fashion so bubbling yourself up in a ball of comfort isn’t necessarily the road to success. Do I have a solution? No. But, like my homework, I’ll deal with it somehow.

Photography by Fernando Reyes

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