October 26, 2016

DAY-N-NIGHT

I’ve been pushing myself to explore many more boundaries of life, which is by far the scariest thing that I’ve done.

Where have I been? I’ve neglected my website entirely for the last month and that’s probably because I’ve been caught up with a lot of things. I recently got in trouble for excessive absences at school and was ultimately treated like some sort of cocaine-selling criminal; I’ve been pushing myself to explore many more boundaries of life, which is by far the scariest thing that I’ve done. I’ve begun by deciding to act in my school’s winter production. And please disregard my exuberant amounts of hate that I’ve launched toward my school throughout the history of The Designer Rat. I just sort of decided that it would completely different from the introverted freak that I am.

There’s been huge flashing in my mind contemplating on throwing out the huge “v-card.” I guess it comes and goes whenever it wants to but it feels primarily serious now. Maybe I’ll change my mind or maybe I won’t. However, I also want people to understand that I know about condoms and everything in between. I want people to trust me on this one. I may be a lot of horrible things to many but ignorant is not one of them. 

I’ve also spent some time reading. I’m in the process of finishing Henry Miller’s ‘Tropic of Cancer.’ I’m not going to lie; it’s a difficult book to read. I struggle a lot in certain parts of the book, but I think that is what makes it so much better. Miller organized it in such a way that it leaves you wanting more regardless of the fact that you sound like you’re just beginning to read. For example, he’s had an entire page leaving me clueless, but then he’ll have an entire page with material that I can clearly understand. It hooks me. I may be mad for thinking that he purposely organized it like that but like Marilyn Monroe once said: madness is genius.

Photography by Fernando Reyes



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